Ellebator

     Sometimes up, sometimes down. I may never move forward, but at least I don't just stand still. 

    It may sound deep for some of you guys, but seriously the meaning is literal. 

    It basically sums me up as a person. I have my best days, when I feel like I can conquer the world, I am at my happiest, bravest, most confident. I feel like I am amazing and that no one can ever drag me down. 

    On the other hand, I have my bottom rock moments. And most of the time, I feel like this. Swallowed by darkness, lost in my silent battles, stressed, pressured, almost giving up. This is when I feel like I am alone and I cannot do anything right now. Sometimes, I even feel like I am going to be stuck in this feeling for the rest of time. 

    But at least I don't just stand still, doing nothing about it. My emotions can be compared to a roller coaster ride. It may look scary, with all the loops, sudden slopes, falls, and rises. But who rides rollercoasters only once, right? No matter how frightened we are, traumatized, exhausted, terrified, no matter how many times we told ourselves never to ride rollercoasters again, we would still do. 

     I believe, most of you, guys, are like me. Because, you will not get this far if you cannot relate to me. And it's okay not to feel yourself sometimes. It's normal to smile at one point of the day and cry your eyes out right after. It's okay not to understand your feelings. Normal to feel like stuck in the darkness, helpless and barely breathing. We are only humans. But you always have to remember that we are humans. We can always do something that can make us happy, even if it's temporarily. 

        Always remember that it's your own rollercoaster, so deal with the ups, pour your heart out every downs, scream on the top of your lungs in every loops, shout at every rise. As long as you keep moving, never stand still. The ride is short, so why not make it the best rollercoaster ride ever?